i want to tell you something.I try to keep to myself but i cant.

I just feel that u dun care or love me anymore.

When u just now,i sat at the playground near my house, i sit n think.



did i anything wrong to you?have i not becum a good gf to you?

its just three months...i can feel that drastic change in you that i cant even control.

its just that the love come and go so fast.



why must u change?.

u said u prefer to be alone at times.

im different from u.

i grew up trying to find sumone to love and care for me.

with no brother,and parents who dun understand me.

i expected you to make me happy.

thats why i may be clingy and irritatin at times.

i expect you to be my fren and a brother perhaps.



someone i can joke around with,sumone who can support me in life .

sumone who can cheer me up when im down.someone who can spent my sweet memories with.



I dont feel dat anymore boyak,im sorry.

And this is one of the reason why i didnt couldnt accept u at first

i scared u will change.and..u already had.:(



for the past one month plusi think of u,think of us.

i tried to tell this to u,but it seems that sumtimes u dun care whats going in my mind.

and u will say i think alot.



i envy other people,why are their lives always seem so happy when im not?

their boyfrens is always there and me?i need to find u coz always not there.

i dun even complain about that coz i understand ur hardships,your life.



Azhar,if u rase when it comes to a point of time I dun make u happy anymore,say straight to my face.

n i'll go even though im reluctant to.



because im tired keeping this to myself with noone to share

and im tired of being sad about you when u promise to be there for me and keep me happy.



i want to be happy.booo:(



n please ,if u think im not fun to be with anymore tell me also.

coz it seems ur bored to death when u meet me like that.



k bye.


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