today is the 7th...3 days after we broke up..
i cried when he wished me last night..
yesterday was supposed to be a happy day for me..i wanted to celebrate it with him...
maybe dia bkn jodoh aku...
maybe he's not to meant to be with him after all..
tapi he's the first guy who made me like this...

to sufian...even though ur not reading dis...maybe bcoz u dun care animore....
i love u n if im lying rite now...i hope i get retribution...
the thing about mail...he just a fren...n i didnt even have anione else during my six months with u...
thirdly...i want US back....
im gonna wait forever....im not gonna move on...
but if one day...u found sumone...
i will disappear for ur life forever......i wont be the girl u see animore..
u dun know how much u hurt me...
i know i done a lot of shits...
but doin this for my bdae...
u celebrated aisah's bdae with a winnie the pooh in hand...n spent her bdae with her..
what i got?
a break up ...a msg from a girl who i presume have feelings for u
who ask me diff qns...asking why i making u suffer?
i never wanted all this to happen..
u let me go....i never want that...
i begged for chances..but u just left me like dat...like what u didto me before we break up...
i know u put high hopes on me...
i never wanted u to do that...
coz i know i tend to make mistakes..
i never wanted to becum like aisah ...
i didnt do until even half the things aisah did..
then y did i get double than what she deserve?
i know ur hurt...but i never once wanted to changed myself...its things that changed...
n when i wanted to talk...u avoided me...
why cant u think that for once that communication is impt...
to understand each other?
how cant u understand me if u dun wanna talk...
u said u try to moved on but u cant...i accept that...i deserved that..
u said u want time...but now u say u dun want me animore,,,
u may think i dun care...
think agn plz
u dump me.
i felt the pain
i try finding u again n again..msgin u everyday...hoping to patch things up...
n not doing tings u hate...
but u dun want to...i didnt know u were that heartless...
selagi nabi ampunkan umat nya...why cant u...
in our relationship...u didn once blame urself for stuffs that happen...
sumtimes u makes me angry..i just kept quiet...coz i dun want to fight...
u stressed up about aisah...alot of times...n sumtimes shwed ur anger at me..
but i forget it...
coz i knw what u r going thru..
but i did small mistakes...u did diz..
my mum say...kau maseh muda...kau ilang yan kau leh carik lain..
u know what i say?
i said ure different...i said i cant forget u...
n now i seldom talk to her.....
i always talk to her bout u...
talk highly of u...
now i reached hm...lock my door n dun even talk to her...
sye mintak tuhan satu bende je..
just to get u back...
but if mmg bkn jodoh kiter skrg...
i just hope i get u back biler dah pi alam saner ....
wak..i always pray for u...
even tho if u think i changed...awk selalu in my mind..
syg sye untok awk maseh the same since i met u...
just want u to know that..
thankz yan for making me the happiest girl for the past 6 months....
i just hope we can put aside evrytin n be happy again...
realli hope that...
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