writing a post jus for u...june is in a way a bad month.. keep havin stupid
quarrels.
n u said i have change?i admit maybe i did.like i said its because of ur
actions..u r hte one who make me like dis.
who do u prioritise more in life?can u tell me...if u say its ur
frens...then i have notin much to say..im in no power to control ur life
animore.i have been keeping quiet all this while...coz in hoping ure
realised and correct ur mistakes......but after talking...u r the still the same
.u realli dun know what i feel.u realli dun....ur no longer the yan i
knoe...its like the first is frens...then its me.
but u know what....even tho u have changed..i still love u,u know..veri
veri much...
n its breaks me inside that u have changed.n im helpless...i cant do
anitin...

its like im happi wen im with u...but when u're not there..im like helpless
n lonely....u dun even tell me what u do nowadays..
i try not to bother....but i cant ...n u will think i duncare bout u
animore..

i dun want anitin to happen to us.......i will be depressed if anitin
hapens to us..
maybe to u..u wont feel a thing animore..i will....it will take a huge toll
on me u dun know that..
i can spend only one week with u...but if this one week means notin to u..n
ur too bz for me after all...i dun what to say alreadi sufian...coz maybe
we willl be too bz for each other.. when skool reopens..

i cant say all this to u...coz what u will do is to push the
back blame on me...
...if u're feelings for have fade...plz tell me.....

sometimes i used to look at the msges u give me in the past..i will tear
up....coz u dun sent me those kind of msges animore.......is the love gone
yan?tell me the truth....

u said u love me more than aisah?is that still true...?
u say u cant go on w/o me?is that still true?
do u still sleep in hoping u will wake up the next morning to see my
smile?
dun think so..coz u hardly sleep animore
is there still trust in u for me?
m i still the best that heaven could offer?
m i still the purpose for u to live?
do u still smell me...?
coz i still smell u ....every now n then...
are u still happy when u're with me?
is ur heart still for me?
do u still wanna be with me in afterlife?
still wanna settle down with me?

if the answer is still yes....ur actons doesnt show..

can u plz answer all this wak...

u always mad with me nowadays...
do i make u pissed off ?
is ur my presence like a pest to u?
when im angry....i just keep it to myself..n prevent it from being angry at
u..

sumtimes i ask to myself......how u treat me....is that how u treat
aisah?
i dun think so wak...
sumtimes i ask myself...what did to deserve all this....
if i did sumthing wrong.....maybe i deserve all dis...

the last thing i want is to be separated from u
thinking this problem..
is affecting my studies...
that how much i love u...
in the past...i used no to care bout guys...when i cums to studies...
but to u....i cant...i think u everytime of the day...
i may nt show it..but i do...
sometimes i look at u when u r not looking at me...
and i feel heppi just to c u everidae...n feel lucky to have u..

when u r going to help ur fren in times of trouble...
i wll stress about u...i just dun want anitin to happen to u...
sumtimes i blame myself....maybe made all this happen...
coz if i dun allow u to do anitin...this wont happen..
i dun know what to say animore...just hope u understand.