today i blurted everything on him...how i have been feeling all this while..
but now im regretting it...he changed...realli changed...
i sad all this have to happen....why cant we just have a happily ever after...
if i can turn things back...i will take back what i said..
if phantom..is more impt to him..ill accept that fact..
ill keep everytin to myself...
he said...i dun love him animore..
im sad he thinks i dun love him animore...
coz im thinking abt him...every freaking second..n he says i dun care animore...
to sufian....if u read this...
if u r heppi with them...just go back...cause i realise day by day...i made little significance in ur life..
even now my msg u reply like u think im a pest..
wheres the guy before all this happen...where?
i feel like quttin school.
i feel like going into a deep sleep sumtimes just to forget all this sad memories..

to him...if u're reading diz..
i love u veri much...i love u soo much...until sumtimes it fuckin hurts...
im sad things had to turn this way..
just wanna say i wont find anione else...coz noone completes me like u do...
just wanna say if one day u moved on...hope diz girl makes u very happy...
lets u have the freedom u want..
understands u...

u think im teling the whole world what im writing...but nobody knows i changed my blog...
n here...i decided to pour out my feelings....

sufian...u promiesd me u wont change...what happen wak?
u dun have time for me...dun tell me thats not a change..
awk start ungkit sal bende lamer semer....dun say thats not a change..

all this while....im faking it out by showing i dun care...
i reply ur msges as if i dun like it..but im faking it all...
sumtimes before i sleep...i cry...wheres the boy i fell in love with?
i say i was hurt with ur words n actions.....were u there to calm me down..
sum couple fite bcoz they meet too often..
we fight coz we dun meet each other dat often..

maybe wak.....we need a break form each other..
so that we realised how we took each other fro granted..

u think i dun care about us...?
i care so fcukin much thats why i been telling what i have been feeling...
so that i correct the wrongs..
i try to keep it..but it hurts..
i was very sad...until it affects my mood at school..
i want to turn to my frens....but they dun unbderstand..
i want u to b my umbrella...

i just wanted u to be the old sufian i fell in loved 5 months back...where is that sufian?
imiss that sufian...i fuckin miz him..

to tell u the truth...i wanted to be the perfect gf..i didnt want to control ur life..
i didnt want to do the the mistakes aisah made..
i didnt want u to hate me...
thats y i gave u freedom..n stop you only whenever i really need to...

why must all this happen..
sufian...sye syg awak...
i dun show my love animore...coz u dun show ur love to me animore...
but i still love u...all my love for u...i keep in my heart..

u wanna sumthing.....i decided to keep my pay and pay for ur motor
i wanted to buy u sumthing for our 6th aniiversary...
i want u to be happy...

but after ur actions..it realli shows how u r unhappy with me...
i dun know if my efforts are worthwhile..
u said to me"if u syg i...u will understand me by joining phantom.."
i understood wak..but other ppl join design...
they also have gfs...but they can divide their priorities..why cant u?


5:45 AM

life is great:)

to ppl whom have been reading dis blog...
what i typed b4 is crap.....all tis while im been blaming him...
but i realised.i was the bitch...
i was the one who makes things worse...
just wanna say im sorry..


ppl...sori if u dont hear ani calls from me animore...
i decided to keep private life my own prob...not yours..
thankz for the encouragement...coz i noe i have frens out there
who will be there fro me:)
love u pple...be happy!:)))


6:10 AM