i want to tell you something.I try to keep to myself but i cant.

I just feel that u dun care or love me anymore.

When u just now,i sat at the playground near my house, i sit n think.



did i anything wrong to you?have i not becum a good gf to you?

its just three months...i can feel that drastic change in you that i cant even control.

its just that the love come and go so fast.



why must u change?.

u said u prefer to be alone at times.

im different from u.

i grew up trying to find sumone to love and care for me.

with no brother,and parents who dun understand me.

i expected you to make me happy.

thats why i may be clingy and irritatin at times.

i expect you to be my fren and a brother perhaps.



someone i can joke around with,sumone who can support me in life .

sumone who can cheer me up when im down.someone who can spent my sweet memories with.



I dont feel dat anymore boyak,im sorry.

And this is one of the reason why i didnt couldnt accept u at first

i scared u will change.and..u already had.:(



for the past one month plusi think of u,think of us.

i tried to tell this to u,but it seems that sumtimes u dun care whats going in my mind.

and u will say i think alot.



i envy other people,why are their lives always seem so happy when im not?

their boyfrens is always there and me?i need to find u coz always not there.

i dun even complain about that coz i understand ur hardships,your life.



Azhar,if u rase when it comes to a point of time I dun make u happy anymore,say straight to my face.

n i'll go even though im reluctant to.



because im tired keeping this to myself with noone to share

and im tired of being sad about you when u promise to be there for me and keep me happy.



i want to be happy.booo:(



n please ,if u think im not fun to be with anymore tell me also.

coz it seems ur bored to death when u meet me like that.



k bye.


9:29 AM

helloooo galfrens!

harry potter coming soon cant wait!yana must watch with me coz im planning to watch it a few times ..hehe:)

during the holidays been working at marks and spencer at great world city and centrepoint has really open my eyes to working in the retail industry.
It may not be as tiring as food and beverage but definitely a good learning experience for me.
Made sum good frens there like sakinah winnie and at centrepoint are joyce and yvonne.miss crapping with u girls in fitting room when theres no customers...hahah...
good luck in ur future endeavours and hope we meet again:)

today was my first day of school.it was okay..but i have a feeling its going tough with progress test and project and ind assignments cumin in one shot.6 months...please fly fast?

have been saving up to buy a bike but i think it will be until next year until i actually get one.
been obsessed with getting dark...been fnding sunblocks to keep my hand and face from becumin darker from other parts of of the body but to no avail coz no money.

think i blog too much...till i blog again.toddles


8:32 AM

hey there peepz..sori for being mia all this while

btw just being the forgetful old me i forgotten my dear frens birthday.

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY LIYANA PASALI!

i wanted to give u sumtin during the outin but the thing is i couldnt make it.
we should meet up soon to make it up to you okie.!!:) sayang kau


btw to update u guys,i have currently have resigned from swissotel merchant court and currently werking for marks and spencer .retail is not my cup of tea but wat to do ...i realy need the money for my sch and my bike:)
yes people im getting a bike.not now but sooner or later.


i will be starting my higher diploma in hospitality management in july 09 and hopefully graduate by sept 2010.wish me luck people coz its going to be tough.


im going to end my job soon so if anybody wanna date me out plz gimmee a cal:)))


n btw im finding part time jobs to work after sch start preferably fnb cafe or banquet in hotels...if you have any lobangs plz tell me okie babies?

tankz an will update again soonest...bye bye babies:))


1:00 PM

Ten Things I Wish I Could Say to Ten Different People (but don't say their name) :

1.I dont know if i like you or not,but the thing is im looking forward to meeting u everyday and i cant understand why even though i think ur avoiding me.

2.Why u cant just understand that i need ur support and help to make this decision easier for me.

3.a new found fren,u help me keep my worries away even for just a while,thankz for going riding with me:)

4.you one of my closest frens...n u understand me alot n be there for me always..love u lots!

5.ur here when theres rain n shine and u accept me for the way i am...love u lots also.

6.i know ur are from the past,but realli,go do what u want.i seriously dun care bout u and dun think bout u animore.

7.i miss you.its been ages since i saw u gerls.

8.u galz have been there since dun know when.n i apprciate that ur still here and close as ever:)

9.i miss u galz.must meet up soon...:)

10.i dun wanna leave the place...but i think i should.sorri guys:(


9:48 AM

btw i need to bring attention bout sumtin can?

one of my frens like to paitao pple ah

i am seriously very pissed off with her

plz change ur attitude beb

coz ur my fren.i just kep quiet.

but this is going out of hand siak

ppl can turn up for meetings...why cant u?

think carefully ah beb.its not me only.its everybody


9:39 AM

didnt update for quite sumtime.for now....i owe everyone a long post

im going to attachment soon.one thing is for sure ,i will miss sch,even tho how much i hate it sumtimes, i will realli miss it.All the ups and downs and the people i havw met there,willl always be remembered..

people treat me like rubbish.especially guys.my gals are the best of coz.but guys realli a full of shit sumtimes.this guy i just befriend,we r barely frens for like 3 weeks?
he said he wanted to be close frens ..but now?whatever ah.full of shit.
even tho im busy,i will still msg him n stuff...but now?what ah eh muz
dah mls ah.dun ever think i wll msg u again.im disappointed the way things are already.u read this post?good for u ah.


secondly this guy called ewan.i think hes way to busy to even cancel a supposedly planned meeting.i even waited for ur msg seh ewan.

this is the most disappointing day ever.haiz

to my rosses,sorri to back out on our karaoke date.realli .i dun think i cant fit on ur timetable.i cant only make it on weekdays and nites only which sum of u cant.just go ahead without me aite.


to my bestie,nurul khairunnisa,happy bird-dae punat...muacks :)

im sad deep inside.i feel son lonely...i dun know why:(

on a fair note..im getting my bike soon:)


9:19 AM

okie.its holidays now!!!
weeee..the last holidays...after that its one more term and im out into the werking world.

must start doing my resume now and sending it to hotels.
the last post was by nurul.i leaft her alone coz she kept looking at ppl's blog and i dun know who the hell are they.

n i dint walk here walk there.
i was just checking out wat shes doing

okie.my manager has just given me five werking days.
n im not glad.
coz on sunday,there this semifinal match at jln besar stadium (singapore vs dun know what)and i really badly i wanna goooooooo.u all dun now i am like super fanatic over all this footbal matches.

the last time was last year at national stadium and the atmosphere was fantastic lahhh
i wana wana wana goooooo....:(
dinda help me out lah!
nanti aku ganti kau biler2 kau free aatu tukar shift ngan kau.....kali ni je.booohooo:(((

till here then.i wanna go cure my excitedness which i know will turn into heartbrokeness eventually...


8:59 AM